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bjork is my new inspiration for everything I do in life 

This one is mysterious, and the lyrics need to be tattooed on my body because they are glued to my heart. It reminds me of a calming, melancholy ballerina with a yearn for love. It also reminds me of a spider, but I'm pretty sure the cigarette strands are a metaphor for her unravelling heart.

This one in particular matches my aesthetic right now. Greens, nature, her lace dress, and the messy naturalness to it all. She just lets it all out ugh I'm so in love with this video christ.

So you kiddos know that I'm obsessed with Alexander McQueen's intricate mind and how his aesthetics are, right? Well, a while ago I found out that he and Bjork did a collab back in the day. She also did a tribute at his funeral but I cry seeing it, so here's the one from when he was alive:

She's so mysteriously human.

Plus this is just so artsy it gives me warm chills. Like seeing a butterfly on a cold day.

I'm so just obsessed with the galactic teenage room that is the universe already and Bjork makes me so fulfilled and just so full of wonder. And just the way she says saliva makes my mind dance.

This is just a backdrop projected on the queen when she is singing on stage, but it's so gr9. Usually I look at artificial constructs such as worn down buildings and pieces in a museum and the painted lines on the concrete street with wonder, but lately it's all been full of nature and the world around me. The sea portrays this with so much vivid imagery and playful colors.

The cartoon visuals in this music video are slightly gorey but unique. It reminds me a lot of Enid's room from Ghost World for some reason. It has a galactic feel to it as well, but more of a fake one.  She's so creative. It feels nostalgic in a way that I've never seen before, similar to her lyric's message. "I miss you but I haven't met you yet." I've felt this distant feeling of eet where I miss something and have a yearning for something that I haven't ever known or felt.

Just inspect this one for youself and feel the smooth beats of the music glide through your veins and into your heart. Just experience it, it's so GOOOODD. It's probably one of my favorites.

This song gives me those digital vibes of eternal dreaming and shocking distress. It looks like it's on drugs yes, but my favorite part about this is that it's so dreamy even though everything isn't liquified and smooth. It doesn't glide, it's kinda choppy, but it works well and isn't hazy in the slightest.

I'll leave you with this one:

The theatrical response it gives to it's audience is so ecstatic and classic. It reminds me of my quivering emotions. From tired to hyper, from happy to sad. Quiet to Loud.

UGH I need to make a Bjork look book.

Her music and style are my new guidelines for life.

Have a special day.

Alexandria

we fall again

Today was something. A lil' boring but still beautiful. I brought my *Jenna Maroney accent* cameruh *reverts back to my voice* to my high school today and my friend Kat stole it but 'tis okay, I got it back. I forgot how much I loved to take photos until today.

another kool thing is that for an assignment in class, all of the freshmen film students are watching and annotating the original "Ferris Beuller's Day Off" script. It's what the kid's call lit.

I haven't posted a good playlist in a while so I thought I'd change it up a bit. My music preference has morphed a bit, as well as my aesthetic from when I started this blog. It's just gonna be slightly different.

i feel like falling 

We Fall Again // Pink Guy

Uneasy Hearts Weigh the Most // Dance Gavin Dance

Stop the World Cause I Wanna Get Off With You // Arctic Monkeys

Euphoria // Polyphia

Anyway, I thought I'd post a bunch of the photos to my deceased bloggerino.

Here you kids go:

These are all out of chronological order but here's my friend who's legal name is New York, but on the streets her name is barackodaddy. Not like our one and only Barack Obama, but more like broccoli.

I bought knee high black socks from the dollar store and ripped them up cause I'm an edgy teen. From my second post EVAH on this crumby blog are fresh shoes, I'm wearing the same shoes here but they've aged horribly. I love them. I also have my galaxy backpack laying backwards but I promise one day I'll take a picture of the actual design.

This is my friend Dariana and she's so gorgeous. Look at the way the sun hits her.

Praise the sun.

Here's a closeup of her hair.

So the story behind this one is the aperture on my camera was too high but it turned out to be the aesthetic everyone hoped for yay.

LILA.

(Photographed by Kat)

Caught white handed!

(Also photographed by dog)

Honestly the most stunning man alive I am shook.

(Also this picture was taken by Katherynnn Gay)

Brooklyn, you sassy broad.

This beauty was taken at a local high school that happens to be my bus stop and not where I actually attend.

I spot a triangle. Gasp! Illuminarti?

This is so pretty. Barackodaddy is truly a wonderful being.

She looks in the distance at her one true lover, 

oh.

Pls someone make this a meme.

The sky today didn't even look remotely real. It was a masterpiece. 

AH A CLOSE UP SHE SLAYS ME.

cute af

Another one. So stunning I'm just gonna sit in a corner now. Why are all my friends so gorgeous and great. A little memeish but that's what makes them so G8 M8.

This photo is really... Oh dear Christ look at him! He's so perfect and undeniably handsome. He's winkety wonking in this one, I'm dead.

Blurry face.

The gay and the hot boy with the hat.

The girl in the back makes this photo. 

*ginger funds*

Kat is honestly so adorable. Really.

And me.

I cry.

(Mid dap)

I actually like this photo a lot.

Look at that big ass acne on my forehead bich pls.

Also Trash be creepin'.

LILA.

Lily is our official 3rd wheel, Kat is not shown in this picture but she is #1 3rd wheel. I'm gonna get her a dundie with that scored in it.

tHE SNACK THat smiless back - children

I don't know who took this but the angle is perfect on my angel if ya know what I mean.

Yes, I am Daniel, a 17 year old girl in a family that does well with 2 brothers, both of them are 4 years younger than me, they are twins. I work at a krispy kreme but I leave the store shift breaks at Chick-Fil-A where I order the exact same meal every day. Iced Tea, a side of fruit, and a chicken biscuit, but I don't eat the bread. My best friend is Rashanda. She is my only friend. I get my outfit inspirations from the posters in Hot Topic, but I shop at Target because they have the clothing textures that I want. How may I take your order?

A blurry photo of Lily and me. I am a butterface, I feel like.

And frickin emo geez

(No caption)

actually wait...

GAYYYYY.

Classic dap. 

I'm sorry America.

This picture is so beautiful as well as Lil. She's honestly good looking and has a sweet personality. She is single and from Florida, she is currently single, let me know if you'd like to mingle.

JK pls don't.

She is amazing though.

Kat lookin hella fine.

Also like the new cover of Pastaferian mingle, January Issue, the one issue that talks about being GAYYYYYY.

Mark the Mexican is tree guard.

This blog is so stupid I'm sorry. Kat is all blurrified but this is fine she still looks gr9.

Lila Kantor: The Story of How I Survived Being GAYYYYYYY. (she's not tho)

Okay just look at this little Mexican Jumping Bean. 

Perfection. 173467341934713401.37163497% perfection right there.

Kat took this one that's why the most jaw dropping sight in history is blurry and the kids behind the masterpiece are in focus.

More uncomfortable hugs. HE'S SO BRILLIANT OML.

Family Feud but not the game show, the real life version.

I am under a wrist. That's why i'm jazz handsing, to show the Police my good dancing skillserino.

DNA EXCHANGE. THE HOSTAGE IS BEING TAKEN.

You guys know the classic Jim face from the office, well this is the classic Mark expression from the dancefloor.

And I know what you're thinking... Alex, that is a school not a dance floor.

Well screw that, you can make any floor a dance floor if you try hard enough.

Mark is breaking the 4th wall but he has a good face so it's okay that he's doing it.

*Classic Mark Expression from the Dancefloor*

I look really ugly in this one but I still love this one so here ya go.

I miss his hug so bad rn as i'm writing this blog. I mis him. He's such an astonishing man. Comedic genius, Mexican, knows the current memes, has hair like a Greek God, same when it comes to that chiseled face and body, he's really sweet and an honest gentleman. Plus, he's wearing a Beatles shirt so I'm going to marry him basically yeah.

See, look at that engagement ring.

Very expensive, I'm sure of it.

I love him with all of my heart.

Well I have .01% of my heart saved for The Twilight Zone but eh statistics, who cares.

The girl in the background I feel lowkey gives this photo vibes that I don't like, but I'll fix it in photoshop l8er sk8er so it's all kool my shizzle. Also nothing can ruin his warm embrace so it's okay.

Uh, oh, Spaghettios!

Here he is holding an invisible glass of water. He doesn't need to physically have one because he is indeed a tall glass of water already, and I must say, sir, you are H2Oh-wning it.

Here he is displaying how many craps he can hold.

Egyptian dancing.

Kat dapping to the macs. Yeah, really hit it, Kat. Good goin'!

I feel like I actually look cuteish in this photo especially with my "Bellemore" name tag (Marko's last name) and my engagement ring so I'm keeping it here.

PART 2 

All of these photos are taken by me on the same day. The sky looked like dissolving cotton candy so I ran outside and took a million photos of it, but for your convenience I only included a few.

Yes, this is the name of the song from the new album, Pink Season. I wish it was on vinyl honestly.

I literally sat my camera on the ground, put it on timer and it took a couple of photos. I'm wearing a thin white tank top with a little lace at the top, brown corduroy slacks, the socks from earlier, and my holographic platform shoes. I just threw it on last second.

i really want to retake these in a better outfit and a more prepared pose.

I'm basic tumblr trash someone help pls.

And what

Earlier in the day, as I was walking 10 minutes home from my bus stop, the only exerisize I get all the diddly darn day. My shadows are dissolving against a metal fence over a concrete, almost static road with ruptured painted arrows and maintained wild flowers.

This is as tropical as it gets folks! JK I live in the depths of hell, Florida, so it get's pretty tropical if ya know what I mean.

Okay yeah I made us into a grunge tumblr edit but hey look at that it's a Dance Gavin Dance quote from I think it's his favorite GDG song, Strawberry Swisher pt. 2. He got me into that band and they're not eggzactly my style of music but I'm still really into them. The only part that I'm not down for is the screamo. But everything else is sooooo good, about the band. 

Okay, more about Mark. I can remember his smell so distinctly, and I just keep missing it every second I am without him. Not just his smell, his personality and his perfection. 

Ahhh anyway hope your day was blessed and I may do a post for the inauguration I may not idk yet. See ya later kiddos.

Alexandria